random

just a random post.

just got back from starlight yoga. nice. relaxed.

i've been feeling lost lately. not lately. since then actually.

i've been filling up my life with shopping and shopping and more shopping. now i'm broke. i'm grounding myself for the next 2 weekends. other den going for gym and natas fair next weekend, i forbid myself to go out. i shall watch all the dramas and animes i've downloaded and those vcds, books and magazines which had been queueing since god knows when.

i've been searching and finding.

finding an aim in my life. now i live my life by the day. i have neither long term nor short term goals. am feeling lost. i need a focus in my life. i need to find back my purpose. have been asking myself. what do i want to achieve in my this life. it seems meaningless now. work harder at work? prove that i can be capable? study masters? Industrial and system engineering? continue to be a planner? change company? stick to this company? what is that that i want?

all i wanna is to be happy. trying my very best already. but i still feel the pain. not as painful as 2 mths back but its still there. i hope it goes away finally. how i wish i had not seen that. maybe i need that.

prayed for 2007 to be a better year but its not working. it sucks as for now.
腐女子 @ 7:59 AM