lost it.

i've lost it... i've lost the ability to understand art...

just got back from meh meh art exhibition... a group art exhibition.... saw meh'z work... its pretty her... hahhah... there was performances too... after watching the performance i tot maybe i've lost it... hmmm coz i dun quite get it...

performance1: a gal dressed in white... with paints all over her... b4 the performance start... she ask the viewers to give her a dot on her face... when the show starts... she starts to paint herself with paints starting from the leg... there is a remote control car.. with both her hands and feet on the floor she tries to block the car... and at the same time she keeps dapping herself with paints... and she dapts the car with paint too... the remote control was being passed ard... until finally to her she plays with it for awhile and tires to make the car over turn... the performance ended with her pouring water over herself... hmmm... i really dun understand... hahhah...

performance 2: its a pretty gross performance... the artist took out a chicken... dead chicken.. he looked at the chicken... den he took out a knife and cut the chicken's body up... revealing the inner parts of the chicken... den he took a blade and starts to cut his arm... drawing 4 lines on his arm... den squeezing blood out of his cuts.... slowly blood starts flowing out... he just keep squeezing more and more blood... drop some blood on the chicken and the rest in a cup of wine filled with ice... the gross part was when he use the mouth of the cup and sweep arcoss his cuts to collect his blood... and he did it so many times... seriously it gives me the shivers... one of the reason is also because its real life and i'm sitting so near lohz... he like an arm distance away... after collecting his blood into the wine glass... he took out a cactus... as he drinks his wine mixed blood drink he hold the cactus with his bare hands... squeeing it tight... pain one lohz... den he pluck the cactus out of the pot and plants it in the chicken... den he does cpr for the chicken... den finally he drags the chicken on the floor and placed it in the fridge... yea.. thats the end of his performance... this one i still can understand abit... hahah... but i think its so pain to cut urself... but come to think of it.. most of my friends have tried cutting themselves... they like to curve pples name on their arms themselves... hmm... i never did that... coz i love myself too much... and dont want to suffer unnecessary pain... i hate pain... both physically and emotionally...

the people there.. the culture there... its so different... i'm definetly not at the same level as them... they all dressed differently... think meh meh dressed the most normal... they had werid haircut... and they wear those nerdy specs... u know what i mean... they look arty farty... most importantly they all smokes... and drinks beer from bottle... hahha... they have buckets and buckets of beers... but they only have 2 bottles of coke and 1 bottle of green tea.... hmmm... tianhe asked me if we were to purse the same route as meh meh will we end up like them... hmmm... it keeps me wondering for awhile... i once tot i will do art for a living... maybe not fine arts but commercial art... but somehow i end myself up in ntu.. studying engineering.. now i'm in my final yr... totally no relation at all with art... but i still love drawing... always wanting to learn painting... dreams to travel round the world and painting them down... hopes to live in the countryside... with beautiful scenery... painting everyday... listen to good music and have a nice cuppa coffee...

thats my dream.. my fantasy... my lala land...

my reality... final yr mpe student... juggling with 7 modules... which amounts to 21AUs and 1 FYP... the other fyp... commonly know as finding your partner... not even started... yup... this is my reality... not sad... but the truth...
腐女子 @ 8:00 AM