The fear within me...

I'm sacred... i'm afraid of betrayal... especially by loved ones...

Just read ur blog... it came upon strongly to me that the non-response from my side might have hurt you in a way or another... i'm really sorry.. for what i've done or what i've not done...

My feelings and my desire contridicts...
I'm confused...
I'm sacred...
It's the fear within me...

11 yrs ago... it struck upon me strongly that nothing is forever...
betrayal by loved ones is devastating...
witnessing it everyday is torturing...
after much struggle...
i've learn to live with it... how sad... but thats just life... whether one likes it or not...

You are a nice person...
makes me laugh with all your jokes...
offered me help when i'm in need...
lending me tutorial solutions when i ask for it...
sending me movies and animes...

Frankly... i've given it a serious thought...
but still i'm too afraid...
afraid to take the big step in...
afraid of the uncertainties ahead...
afraid of leaving my comfort zone...

Somethings need to be proven...
but what...
i'm not too sure myself either...
do you know?
can you understand?

Although i'm in a mess myself... haha...
i want to tell you that i know that you are going through alot of unhappiness lately... but it's just part and parcel of life... we are bound to meet with problems, troubles and unhappiness... all theses are lessons and tests god placed them in our life to examine us... by overcoming them all will definately makes us a better person... (knowing how to calculate the pressure on a particular spot on the wing of the aeroplane will only make you more knowlegeable and not make you a better person... hahah) So... hope you will pull through all these unhappiness soon... cheer up... don't be so sad... things will get better soon... before you know it... you've become a better person=) Look on the positive side... at least you know that there are still many friends who cares about you... and this is something which is worth to be happy about.. right? I'm looking forward in seeing you level up as a better person the next time i see you ok? so don't dissappoint me =) Gambatte!

腐女子 @ 11:01 AM